What a powerful gift to be brought to the edge and then discover that the sky has expanded, the ground has steadied, and love has become my undeniable compass. I had no idea a year and a half ago that I would be diagnosed with cancer, that the journey would lead me through times of such immobility and weakness that I would require a wheelchair, that I would struggle to breathe and be sent to the emergency room with the possibility of thirty minutes to live.
Having the privilege to look back on this now, fully recovered and cancer free, I can't help but reflect on the remarkable gifts that resulted from this transformational experience. Not only is there a more profound sense of gratitude and a deeper appreciation for life, I now have become intimate with the miraculous.
"May I tap into the vast intelligence that spins an elaborate symphony
from the breathless encounter of two cells.
Two cells becoming four, becoming sixteen, thirty-two, sixty four,
Becoming spine, heart, lungs, fingernails and eyelashes.
I welcome the effortlessness of gravity,
the power of connection between a raindrop and thirsty ground,
a mother and her newborn child.
May I know my true north and navigate with the certainty of wild geese,
the confidence of salmon,
Returning home, may I reveal the same unabashed and authentic hue
as the tulip expresses its "tulipness,"
the tiger its "tigerness."
So I simply exhale knowing that in this fractal wave of time
every moment is a gift with which to align
the Infinite Divine."